Five-minute freewrite
Nov. 27th, 2022 01:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spatterdashFor the first time since...maybe since I was an undergraduate, I'm heading into December with the last day of class being November 30 (Wednesday), my final exam on Friday December 9, and then no expectation that I'll return to work until January 3, 2022.
It's WILD to think about the fact that I have been at this theatre in residence at a university, staffed almost entirely by students/teachers, and yet we've worked right through all the holidays and breaks the whole goddamn time.
Having a lot of guilt about having gone into this field, remorse about what it's cost me in terms of personal relationships and the things which seem like such luxuries to me because I've never had them, like time off for a holiday or being encouraged to take a day off for a family obligation or to stay home because you are literally actually sick.
I suppose it's not "just" theatre where that grind culture has been presented as the norm or the "path to success" or whatever. But it's still something I struggle with and I'd love to come to a place where I don't carry such resentment and shame about it.
It's WILD to think about the fact that I have been at this theatre in residence at a university, staffed almost entirely by students/teachers, and yet we've worked right through all the holidays and breaks the whole goddamn time.
Having a lot of guilt about having gone into this field, remorse about what it's cost me in terms of personal relationships and the things which seem like such luxuries to me because I've never had them, like time off for a holiday or being encouraged to take a day off for a family obligation or to stay home because you are literally actually sick.
I suppose it's not "just" theatre where that grind culture has been presented as the norm or the "path to success" or whatever. But it's still something I struggle with and I'd love to come to a place where I don't carry such resentment and shame about it.
